“It’s a beautiful moment when somebody wakes up to this reality, when they realize God created them so other people could enjoy them, not just endure them.” Donald Miller
Scary Close is the first book I read this year.
It’s tagline is “Dropping the Act and Finding True Intimacy.” It is a book about the risk involved in choosing to impress fewer people and connect with more, about the freedom that comes when we stop acting and start loving. It is a story about knocking down old walls to create a healthy mind, a strong family, and a satisfying career.
It is a scary read. It is a beautiful read.
At the end of it I felt a bit naked and exposed. I felt a stronger call to be more authentic and to rediscover who I really am and to be that. Not that I’ve been hiding, but that there was more to be and that I am a work in progress. God is at work in each one of us, we are His masterpiece, created on purpose with a purpose.
It challenged me to be more vulnerable and to love more, to not be afraid of who perhaps I really am.
“It costs personal fear to be authentic but the reward is integrity, and by that I mean a soul fully integrated, no difference between his act and his actual person. Having integrity is about being the same person on the inside that we are on the outside, and if we don’t have integrity, life becomes exhausting.”
I ended the year feeling really stretched and somewhat peopled out, and I look at that as a symptom of something, something a little bit undefined at this stage, but it means something.
My “one word” for the year is REDISCOVER and Scary Close was the beginning of that journey, that rediscovery. It made me ask myself questions that I dont know answers too, or even that there were questions to ask.
“I LIKE WHAT THE DANCER MARTHA GRAHAM ONCE said, that each of us is unique and if we didn’t exist something in the world would have been lost. I wonder, then, why we are so quick to conform—and what the world has lost because we have. William Blake said about Jesus that he was “all virtue and acted from impulse, not from rules.” If we are to be like him, aren’t we to speak and move and do, to act upon the world and take new ground from the forces that work against our unique genius and beauty? What if part of God’s message to the world was you? The true and real you?”
So, hello 2016.