being a mum can seem daunting sometimes.
i’m responsible for people. responsible for their health, well being, education, security, faith.
my words and actions, what i do and don’t do, shapes who they will become, who they are.
there are many times when i don’t know what i am doing, when i am winging it, when i am completely feeling out of my depth and that i’m running on fumes, and making up what happens next.
i remember thinking about my mum. she was 30 when she had me. i was 26 and 29 when i had my two.
my mum never seemed like she was winging it. she always seemed like she knew what to do, like she had it together. it never crossed my mind to doubt her experience or her doing. she was my mum. mums know everything.
but as i now experience motherhood, i wonder, did she? did she always have it together?
or was that just the childlike impression i had? is it an innate thing children do, to have unwavering confidence in their mum?
it gave me comfort and hope that even though i don’t have it together and may feel incredibly unsure on the inside, my children will trust and hope in me, perhaps simply because i’m their mum.
there are times that i feel that i have failed. there are times i HAVE failed. but i’m learning, growing.
being a mother isn’t about a series of things we do, a series of activities or actions, a formula we can master.
its who i am.
i am a mother.
You have the exact qualities God knew your kids would need in a mother. So, each day, hold up your willingness and ask God to make you the best version of you that you can possibly be. Lysa TerKeurst
God has called me to be a mother, the mother of my children. they were chosen to be my children and i was chosen by God to be their mother.
i can rest assured that as God empowers me to preach and serve Him, so likewise He empowers me in this important ministry – motherhood.
He is the giver of wisdom, grace, kindness, love. As i trust in Him and ask Him for His help He fills me and overflows through me. i can do all things through Christ who is my strength.
As i surrender my own responses and reactions and natural desires to Him (when i am frustrated, afraid, grumpy and impatient) He changes me and helps me to be more gentle, self controlled, peaceful, loving.
as i face situations unique to my own children, i can rest, secure, confident even, that God is with me and has purposed me for even this moment.
God planned my family.
Day by day, i will trust Him. Love Him. Serve Him.
and i hope that is what my children will know about me, remember about me.
what my mother did was she trusted and loved God all the days of her life.
So, let’s do this thing. Let’s write.
Set your timer, clear your head, for five minutes of free writing without worrying about getting it right.
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community..
Oh and Ahem, if you would take pity and turn off comment verification, it would make leaving some love on your post that much easier for folks!
OK, are you ready?
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