Changing The Way I Speak

last week i went and had my 2nd b12 shot.

i had my first a month prior.

now i have to confess, i really dont like needles.  i have my babies naturally to avoid needles.  yeah i know that sounds bonkers.

i had my 2 kids with me for the first one, so knew i had to be brave and had had a blood test the week before that “wasnt too bad” so i think perhaps by result of practice i’m less fazed by them. 

so i lay down on the nurses bed, ready for my first b12 injection in my arm.

the needle went in.

i was amazed, it so didnt hurt.  yay.

i told the nice nurse.

then she told me that it doesnt hurt when the needle goes in, it hurts when she (as she began pushing the plunger bit down) when the stuff goes into me.  yikes.  it sooooo did.  worse than i could have imagined.  then the side effects hit me.  that night i went to bed with a wheat bag on my arm/shoulder/back and tried to sleep. the next day i was still in lots of pain and feeling ill and sick and weird.  went to bed at 5.30pm that night. 

so of course i was prepared for the 2nd injection.  made sure my week was planned out, ready to be wiped out for 2 days.

the morning of the 2nd b12 injection my tummy felt yuck.  i was definitely feeling physical effects of fear.

then i stopped.

God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of love power and a sound mind.

fear is not good.

the words i had spoken, that it would be bad, that it would hurt, that i would have a reaction, were making me fearful.

so i stopped.

i changed the way i spoke.

my new language was that i was going to have a b12 injection and it wouldnt hurt and would be fine and i would be fine.

i was still nervous when i went to see the nurse again, but not fearful.

i lay down.

she told me that because i was been so brave she would give me some jelly beans.

she is so my favourite nurse.

in went the needle.  no probs.

in went the b12.  no probs.  seriously, it was nothing like my experience before. 

and i had no post injection reaction.

i believe that because i changed the way i spoke that my experience changed.

thanks God for the reminder and life lesson!

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